Society is making me mean, #AhmedMac

Day by day I'm going away from my religion, my culture. Society is brainwashing me to be mean and live like others. I struggled for years to live like how a muslim should, but eventually when I reached the verge of destruction, I had to learn to bow my head according to the circumstances. Now I feel bad that I'm becoming more like others, I have started thinking like others, my compassion for others is going away from me. I think it's not in my hands, everything that happens is by the permission of Allah, I have tasted faith and I can say that it was the most beautiful taste I ever had. Maybe I don't deserve it, maybe I'm not yet ready to have such a beautiful thing in my life. Maybe my God isn't happy from me.

Today when I hear about rape incidents, I don't feel that sad anymore, I used to feel their pain once. But now I'm becoming a person like everyone else who just cares for himself. I hate rape culture, I have a great sympathy with such victims, I'm your brother, I'm your friend, no one may pray for you but I shall always. I can't forget what my religion taught me, I won't be a human unless I have the feelings of a human. Humanity is the thing that makes someone a human. I am not saying this to impress anyone, some people who know me from years do know it too, that I had a great desire of giving shelter and love to the victims of war and rape, they're my brothers and sisters, that's what my religion taught me. I wanted to marry 4 of them and motivate people to marry them too. I thought it to be possible. I thought that I'll be strong enough to stand against society, I thought that I'll have much assets to do good at every level possible. But now it seems impossible to me, it seems imaginary.

I had faith that the people who do good get the capability to complete their missions and win against evil, but I was wrong, this world is not an easy game, you can't just devise a simple formula of life. The people who do good are tested the most in this world. I used to be an optimist, I used to imagine a perfect world, I still do. But my spirits have gone rogue, I'm a pessimist now. Still Insha-Allah, if I got the chance to do good at any level, then I shall. May God help me fulfill my promise. I'm a sinner too, not a pious person, I was heading towards that, but I'm getting lost. May Allah forgive, help and guide us all (ameen).

People are so mean these days

People move on but we don't, we hope for the same thing to happen twice, for good to come back again in the same way it was gone, for people to come apologize and be with us again, we believe in simplicity and that good behavior will attract people with love, we are so blind and dreaming so softly, we are so wrong about this world and the animals we live amongst. People just think of their benefit, that's the truth, the majority does it. That's the reality of this society, it's not what we expect it to be, it's better now to learn it than repent upon it later. Our destruction can sometimes be in our own hands. Let's save ourselves!

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#RandomFact #RandomThoughts

There is no difference between a poor and a rich

We should live in a society where status doesn't matter, where people are known and appreciated by their personalities and generosity rather than by how much they earn or possess in real life. Today if someone works in a shop or hospital to support his/her educational expenses or family then it shouldn't be considered bad or wrong, that person should not be made to feel less than a person who doesn't earn because of his/her parents' earning. If you have someone earning for you then remember that not everyone has a father like yours, some of them have to earn for themselves by working as a salesman and receptionist, they're not less than you, society should stop giving them an inferiority order. This thing really annoys me a lot, why can't we all keep our hearts clean and let everyone else live in peace? They struggle, they work, are they not better than us, are they not more strong? What if we are forced to work like them for just a little money? Don't mock them or their situation, tables can turn anytime. Fear Allah!