People may call me strong

People may call me strong, bitter, strict or rude, but I know that I am a very weak person emotionally, and by heart. Everything saddens me, even when I was writing the plot of a story, it almost made me cry, the pain of it was real, I couldn't write any further, I couldn't even read what I was writing. People may say several times that it had been easy for them to bear things, but even the smallest feelings do mess me up a lot with emotions, it may be easy for others to bear them out but not for me. Movies and sad stories, I don't like them, because I can't bear them, I am always worried and tensed about the future losses, I always fear the emotions it will leave behind, yes I'm not emotionally stable person, and yes I don't feel good about it either, it's not my choice, I feel the pain even when it's just a thought, it hurts me, it burns me, and at the end I cry inside. Sometimes I feel like crying without any reason. Maybe that's why I have a little humanity? But still it will always break me.